The more I want to NOT think about it….

The more I want to avoid thinking of it, the more I will think of it. And when I start thinking of it, I stuck. I won’t be able to do my job. I start blogging.

Why should I be jealous when I shouldn’t be? Why can’t I just tell my heart what to feel? Tell my mind what to think and what not.

What is this journey going to teach me this time? Everyday is a lesson. It’s just I am willing to except the truth behind the lesson or not.

All my life I have been a loser….why should I give up this time…or deep in my fabric of nature…I am a winner. A winner that lose too much.

Now I want to win something in my life. The chances are slim…or actually don’t even exist. But I don’t take chances…I just try. By myself and do what I always do.

Seriously….If love has never been my friend…and friend will never be my love….why should I bother?

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One Response to “The more I want to NOT think about it….”

  • missirina Says:
    March 7th, 2010 at 4:04 pm

    Dear mr elvinado,

    It’s been such a looooong time. I’ve been browsing through my old posts and reading the comments, and there is a comment from you. I’m just starting to read (although it seems like there’s a lot that I missed), so please bear with me.

    “Now I want to win something in my life. The chances are slim…or actually don’t even exist. But I don’t take chances…I just try. By myself and do what I always do.”

    That is actually a very good perspective. Try as hard as you can, don’t think of surrendering before the battle is lost, and if you do lost, it is not because you gave up.

    =)

    All d best kay..

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