Crucial Hours

There’s only few hours left. I am thinking of correcting wrongs that I did. Or maybe not. Or maybe this few hours left will give another reason to make more mistakes and start the new book with ugly cover.

Now I admit I have fears.  I fear…I mean really really fear that I lose a few (I mean very few) peoples that I considered still friend. I just felt that losing friends nowadays is so easy. As easy as a click of a button on Facebook. Reason might be various. As simple as only 2 words or as elaborate as a full fledged essay.

I am on the verge….if I lose all my friends…then I will be back to who I were a year ago…the same person again. The person that I don’t want to remember who he was. Let alone to become him again.

Oh 2010, let me start journey with blazing glory so to say.Or at least let it just start without anything painful happening. After all 2010 is my 2nd cycle of 12 years cycle. Used in Chinese calender I guess. I am 2 years old…

Control….control….I thirst for control….I must control my Heart and Mind and Soul….