I am restless and I can’t sleep
For some reason I am really really restless and I certainly can’t sleep. If it’s you what would you do?
So I pack my laptop and took it to internet room downstairs. Maybe the internet addiction has returned.
I felt all kinds of feelings. Mixed and confused. I felt guilt and anxiety. Fear of unknown.
I can’t do a thing. Voices in my head. Voices of my mum, my friends, my brother, and my own voice. I just can’t stop thinking about what they were saying. I am haunted by them.
Running away from what I should be doing. Just lying to myself. I am so afraid. I want to cry. But no tears would come out.
Am I delusional? Am i going crazy? Maybe I am merely lonely. I need something to live for. I need a reason. I really need it.
I just can’t found it where. Looking in vain. Keep on looking with only despair at hand.
Shouting in silence.
June 19th, 2008 at 5:07 am
oo..what hapened!? calm down…drink chamomile tea! it’s good for calming..
June 19th, 2008 at 8:19 am
you make it sound so teruk eh .. ha ha ha. cheer up dude. not getting friends offline? u’ll always have people online .. people that you know and people that u don’t … it’s all the same
June 19th, 2008 at 8:40 am
Hey, give yourself a time out. That should solve the problem.
June 19th, 2008 at 2:34 pm
I also got no Idea
June 19th, 2008 at 2:34 pm
Thanks
June 19th, 2008 at 2:35 pm
Thanks Lynnwei…I’ll try to find it…BTW your gravatar is working fine and nice.
June 19th, 2008 at 7:01 pm
go out and have fun!
there r several good movies to watch at the moment.
June 19th, 2008 at 8:48 pm
hello alvin!! sorry for not visiting earlier.. my internet connection is restricted nowadays. haha.. didn’t have internet at where I was working.
anyway, cheer up ok.. life always has its up and down, and when you’re feeling really down, try to talk to others. share your problems, coz it might lessen the burden.
=)
all d best, okay!
June 19th, 2008 at 10:39 pm
tido la .. kang x cukup tido . .payah lak tau
June 20th, 2008 at 2:06 am
haunted by family member voices?
June 20th, 2008 at 7:56 am
dont worry yaar…
June 20th, 2008 at 7:57 am
check out my link too…
June 20th, 2008 at 9:18 am
I watched Saving Private Ryan, Pathology and Return to the King recently…but not in cinema just in my own room…huhu
June 20th, 2008 at 9:19 am
Thanks for the effort…
I am talking to my blog…you all…huhu
June 20th, 2008 at 9:19 am
Hehe kalau siang je mula la tido je kerja.
June 20th, 2008 at 9:20 am
Yes indeed.
June 20th, 2008 at 9:20 am
Yeah ak. I will do so later…
June 20th, 2008 at 11:23 am
yor.. what’s up dude? why restless? confused, anxiety and guilt? go do something.. read, run, find somebody to talk. it helps. talking to ’something’, someone make you feel better.
June 20th, 2008 at 11:48 am
I will…thanks.
June 20th, 2008 at 7:35 pm
hey, hmm.. sounds like something bad bothering you.. maybe you can write about it if you can’t find someone to talk to..
June 21st, 2008 at 1:42 am
Nothing much about it…it’s ok…thanks
June 21st, 2008 at 2:17 pm
sebabb?
June 22nd, 2008 at 1:50 am
Sebab…malas ku mok bercerita
June 22nd, 2008 at 8:03 am
dengar macam u need aweks… ;p
June 22nd, 2008 at 11:41 am
wat i do is put pressure on my forehead middle section using a pillow it turns me out …to sleep i mean. try it ( another useless bb suggestion
but it works for me. apparently wrestlers use some sort of similar hold too
June 22nd, 2008 at 9:12 pm
Mungkin…hehe
June 22nd, 2008 at 9:13 pm
I’ll certainly try it out