For some reason I am really really restless and I certainly can’t sleep. If it’s you what would you do?
So I pack my laptop and took it to internet room downstairs. Maybe the internet addiction has returned.
I felt all kinds of feelings. Mixed and confused. I felt guilt and anxiety. Fear of unknown.
I can’t do a thing. Voices in my head. Voices of my mum, my friends, my brother, and my own voice. I just can’t stop thinking about what they were saying. I am haunted by them.
Running away from what I should be doing. Just lying to myself. I am so afraid. I want to cry. But no tears would come out.
Am I delusional? Am i going crazy? Maybe I am merely lonely. I need something to live for. I need a reason. I really need it.
I just can’t found it where. Looking in vain. Keep on looking with only despair at hand.
Shouting in silence.
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hello alvin!! sorry for not visiting earlier.. my internet connection is restricted nowadays. haha.. didn’t have internet at where I was working.
anyway, cheer up ok.. life always has its up and down, and when you’re feeling really down, try to talk to others. share your problems, coz it might lessen the burden.
=)
all d best, okay!

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