more or less just about me and some other things that come to my mind
Small and weak
Hyperopic since 7
Lone wolf
Hate party
Electronics lovers
Anime otaku
Hiding from society
Acknowledge nerdness
Speak technical
lover to a laptop
spend 90% of awake time with computer related stuff
Linux enthusiast
Never wear jeans
messy
suicidal
…
A blogger without internet connection…
A blogger without idea…
A blogger that is too occupied with other things without blogger…
I guess the blogger is not a blogger at all…
So I will again in hiatus again and again…(do I really want to blog?)
I might do some rethinking… hoho Next month will be my “first assessment” and I am not prepared at all….
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…there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.
When?
First met - When I was form 1 around mmm almost 10 years ago.
Last met - on the day the background photo was taken. According to EXIF data it was 31/7/2007. I am not sure.
How?
First meeting - She was my classmate.
Last meeting - Something to do with mini reunion at Coffee Bean/ Bintang Plaza Miri.
Who?
She loves to laugh. Her laughter just making every meetings more lively. She did sometime some dirty jokes. I remember her as a moderate contemporary devout to the religion (What’s that?).
Where?
I don’t know where she is. I last heard that she was in Kuching or somewhere. Haven’t been in contact lately.
What?
What reminds me of her? Her tomboyish way when she was in school (not anymore I guess). Her laugh. Her laugh…I keep on thinking of her laughter. And I don’t remember her having short hair…huh what’s that?
She is fondly called “Bel” by her Kolej friends. Her name is Belinda.
Next…I hope to see you anytime soon. Although meeting in Miri would be quite not possible, I wish to see you anywhere under the sun.
When I was in Kolej (KTDTHB), this song was really popular. It was like on everybody’s lips. The rhythm was just everywhere to find. However I myself have not really read the lyric or the words in the song. One of the reason was because my english wasn’t really good.
Recently I double clicked the mp3 in my laptop and listen to the song. Then, suddenly it touches me. I understood the meaning. I understood what the song try to convey to me as listener. Moreover I am eager to find something meaningful for me on the meantime. Every words seem so meaningful suddenly.
I am looking for that something. How about you?
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Everybody’s looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You’ll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
“Just a little bit more”, you told yourself. Even how hard it is just a little bit more would do. You want to keep on moving forward. Your eyes become blurry and you steps become wobbly. You can’t even swing your hand properly. Despite, “Just a little bit more”, you cried in your heart.
It is like running in a very long distant race. Your mind already knew that they are fixed finishing line. Yet when you run and run and keep on running the finishing line seems so far unreachable. Still, you believe that the finishing line is there waiting for you.
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This is the second post in 49 Pairs.
I know her in MRSM. We were not in the same class though but she always having night prep the same place (Dataran Hasanah) with my friends and I. I didn’t know her much that time. Just seeing her from afar. As usual we are too busy about our own business.
How would I describe her? I think I really get to know her better around 2 years ago when I discover that she live at the nearby neighborhood near my house in Miri. She is a lively person. Smiles are always carved on her face all the time. She say whatever comes to her mind. Sometimes I understand that she can stand some bad jokes.
Trying, striving, struggling, endeavoring are the words that sometimes really touch our deep consciousness. Have I done enough of those? Do I give my all to harness the best of me? Or I just do things halfway and always give up?
Do I sigh alone in my room and utter some words of self-contempt? Sulking endlessly in silent until a point that I feel suicidal? Have I done enough? Have I got enough? Asking questions that shouldn’t be ask…
It is easier just to follow orders. Live for somebody else and make no decision for myself. Living without reason to live and dying without something to regret for. Just to follow the ebb and tide of time and peoples.
But…it is the best to live for something. To have reason in life. To live in freedom without been bound to anything. But…there are things that are hard to come by. Even when it’s within grasp, sometime I don’t realize it. Reason, that’s what I need. I need mission to continue breathing. I need goal to make my life meaningful.
The first one “Say It Again” by Marie Digby. I have posted the lyric and youtube clip here. I love this song that post about it again.
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The next song is a Gothic Rock song by Within Temptation a Dutch rock band. The song title “See Who I am”. My friend introduced it to me. He told me that he found it from some video clip about a game. I just keep listening to it over and over again.
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And the last one again from Marie Digby, “Unfold”. A song with the album with the same name. She was accepted really well when she came to Kuala Lumpur to promote her album. However she haven’t put any youtube post lately.
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I have edited quite a number of pictures. Precisely these are pictures of me and my girl friend (not girlfriend) or female friend that I used to know. These are only those pictures that I could retrieve from all these years. Some of the pictures maybe hidden somewhere refused to be found. Today I will start with the first person.
This is Angela or fondly called Angel.
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